August

August financial

Finished the month in black!!

$752.31 to be exact.

Of course, that was only due to the rare occurrence of receiving a third paycheck within the calendar month, but never mind that.

 

In September looms the possibility of additional child care costs as my work schedule changes with the school year. I’ve been good about keeping grocery and home goods spending low. I don’t expect any holiday/birthday/etc spending, or any travel.

 

There could be major legal expenses though.

 

I haven’t changed my loan payments, but I will as soon as my situation gets more desperate.  I’m looking at other daycare options too.

next steps

I hate feeling damaged. I hate having to fight back tears and curse words. I hate being afraid all the time.

 

For months I begged him to get help. When he wouldn’t I begged him to just leave me alone. When he wouldn’t do that I filed a restraining order.

He’s made it clear now that he won’t obey it.

The next step is a criminal complaint. I will need to serve him the petition/summons and present my case in court. I don’t know if I have enough evidence or not. I don’t know if I have the strength. 

 

I never did attend counseling. The places that take my insurance have obscenly long waitlists. The places that don’t require insurance are out of my price range. I do need counseling though, to survive seeing him at court. I will need counseling afterwards. I’ve started telling parts of the story online, both here and elsewhere. It’s helped put things in perspective. It’s helped organize my thoughts. It’s helped me recognize how really damaging the whole thing was. And still is.

 

I’ve lived in fear for two years, now why is the only potential solution is just as frightening?